Going through a dark night of the soul.

Okay so I’m not posting a reading tonight because honestly I’m having a hard time right now dealing with my emotions, specifically the negative ones. Everything right now seems to be pushing my buttons and I’m ready to scream but can’t as I don’t live alone. I feel like I’m always swallowing my anger and frustration and this is also negatively affecting my own health. Along with that I also feel like I’m questioning everything about my spiritual life.

In this moment I find myself moving away from some “spiritual” things like Twin Flames. God knows I have done so much research on the subject, I have subscribed to sites that talk about Twin Flames, I have had readings done myself, I have been told this one is my Twin Flame and then that changed and someone else was now my Twin Flame, but who the heck knows??? I was thinking to myself that I have had a few Tarot readings done for me, even before I knew about Twin Flames, and when I look back, not one of them has come true, not even one thing I was told! Now I do understand that what readers see is a potential for the future, but out of the dozen or so I have had done, don’t you think someone would have gotten it right?

When it comes to the Twin Flame phenomena, I have decided that most of it is hype. I know too many people who have put their lives on hold waiting for their Twin Flame to wake up and smell the coffee and come to them. Some have been waiting a years for this. Every post says it’s about to happen, any day now, be ready. Well it’s almost 9 years for me and I know others who have been at this a lot longer. So my question is, have we all given away our power?? Here is where all this stuff on Twin Flames originated from:

Greek philosopher Aristotle said: “Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.” According to Greek legend, by the story based on mythology written by Aristotle’s mentor, Plato in his work, Symposium, humans originally were half male and half female. After conspiring to climb Mount Olympus, Zeus ordered them cut in half. Since that day, every human spends their life searching for their other half.

Based on this, a few sentences, this whole phenomenon of Twin Flames was created. From most of what I have read, not all Twins have incarnated on this planet. It was originally thought that one Twin would have a physical life and the other would remain in spirit to act as a guide and now here we all are searching for our Twin Flames. I remember reading in one of Steve Rother’s channelings of The Group that Twin Flames were never meant to meet on this planet even if they were both here. So again who is right? There is so much hype based around the idea of our “other half” and so many of us are missing the opportunity of having a very loving and satisfying relationship with an ideal partner because we are waiting on our elusive Twin Flame.

Are we deluding ourselves into thinking that someone we believe we love and who we believe is our Twin Flame is going to come running to us one of these days and tell us how sorry they are for the misery they have put us through? And people are profiting from our pain! Now there are so many Twin Flame coaches and readers out there who all promise that if you follow their advice, you and your Twin will magically come into union. In my mind, because I have experienced this first hand, it’s mostly BS.

I have made a decision for myself and I am choosing not to be part of this anymore. Sometimes it feels like I have sold my soul in the name of Twin Flames. I’m done waiting for some magical time to arrive when all Twins are going to wake up and go running to their partner. Chances are it’s not going to happen. If this hurts some of you, then I’m sorry but perhaps it’s time to look at the bitter truth, we are fooling ourselves by jumping on this band wagon while life passes us by.

Also over the past couple of years I have been relying on pendulums to get answers to some questions regarding my Twin and other things, and I have tried to follow what I get, but then after a week or so I will ask the same questions and get different answers! So what is right and what is wrong? How do we know? I hear people say “my guides said this or that” and I think to myself “why the heck can’t I hear my guides?” I mean yes now and then something will come through that has to be from Spirit because there is no other way to explain it, but for the most part I always feel like I’m fumbling around in the dark and not sure what is truth and what is fiction. Some will say that their Higher Self told them this person was their Twin Flame. Great but I can’t seem to hear my Higher Self either. I must be a bit slow I figure, not as in tune with Spirit as I would like to be, and I can’t seem to make that connection as hard as I have tried.

So I guess I’m just questioning everything right now. I’m beginning to think those who say I’m living in a fantasy world may be right. Perhaps it’s time to take my head out of the clouds and live in this reality. A scary thought really because I’m not sure I have lived in this reality till now. I’m just tired of waiting for things that may never happen. As Kryon says, change happens slowly and this “flash” of energy that some are expecting that will change everyone in an instant, is not going to happen. And so I’m beginning to think that at 59 years of age, it might be time to come down to earth and live before I die.

Take care everyone and I will be back with the readings when I get my own life figured out.

Card For Today

Envy

Our card for today, Tuesday, August 23rd, is taken from The Soul’s Journey Lesson Cards – Envy – “I am the same as everybody but with different challenges.”

As soon as I looked at this card I was reminded of a Kryon channeling, “Five in a Circle”, that I listened to last night and so I will incorporate the notes I took from that channeling in this reading as it fits so well. Most of this will be word for word as Kryon said it and some will be in my own words. Here is the link to the channeling if someone wants to listen to it for themselves: http://audio.kryon.com/en/Phoenix-MAINi-SAT.mp3

These are some of the types of old souls on the planet and what they are doing, but remember there is no hierarchy, every type is as important as the other, they all support one another. God is in everyone on the planet, the energy on this planet is changing, old souls carry much wisdom for this time on the planet, and old souls are waking up to different tasks in order to supply a solution to the new energy.

We all have different “jobs” and what puts us in one of the types we are talking about is our Akash, it creates who we are now, what we are doing and how we feel about it, that is specifically spiritual. It’s a beautiful system and we are all working it and don’t even realize it. This all has to do with Akashic entanglement, or in other words, a shared reality, it’s a quantum expression. This entanglement is pushing the new energy forward. Don’t try to fit yourself into one of these 5 types because there are grey areas and you might have pieces of 2 or 3 of the 5 types, and you can be one type for a while and then change to another type later on through experience and knowledge. When Kryon talks about these different types he refers to them as being in a circle or a ring. So here are 5 of the various types:

1. Number 1 represents new beginnings. All they do in their waking hours is think about why they are here, they are so driven and so focused on this one thing to the exclusion of all else for most of them and they get a lot done. However because number 1 represents new beginnings, this type never ends what they are doing, it is never complete, it’s always new.

2. These don’t have quite the push of the number 1, but they still feel as though they do, they are just a little more relaxed with it. Number 2 represents duality, they deal with the human body, they are the healers. They are the ones looking for solutions that will support number 1. Number 1 tends to overdo things and so he needs number 2 to heal. Number 2’s come up with the systems that help humanity. They remember that they were healers before in past lives. They are a piece of the whole, but specifically they help number 1.

3. Three is a catalytic number, it moves things. A catalyst is something that stays the same but changes what it comes in contact with. These are the meditators of the planet. Their Akash is so comfortable because they can sit and meditate for days and they will come out refreshed. What are they doing? They are holding the energy of all the others together because their consciousness is steady, it’s quiet, it’s beautiful, and it sets a stage that all the others feel. For example, the meditative side isn’t part of number 1 at all, but when he feels frustrated, he feels number 3 so that he feels peace and then relaxes and knows all is well because number 3 is here doing their job.

Number 3 has had lifetimes of being monks all over the planet to just sit and be. There is so much power there, they just sit there and steady the planet and all the other numbers. Whatever comes their way is more peaceful. Number 1 and number 2 need number 3 desperately, but number 3 needs number 1 because just sitting there and being won’t accomplish what number 1 can do. Are you beginning to see how this works, how they are interconnected and need each other? All the pieces fit together like a Swiss clock.

4. Number 4 is the Gaia number. Gaia is related to human consciousness, what happens to planet earth is connected to us profoundly. For the ancients, the ancestors, Gaia was all they had as there was no technology, Gaia gave them food and the weather. We have lost that connection but we still need it. Number 4’s may not even know they are Lightworkers but they KNOW they are connected to the earth. They are passionately connected to the earth! You can’t pry them off a tree when they are hugging it! They need to be part of Gaia all the time.

Number 4 is also an animal whisperer, an animal lover, someone that can speak to the consciousness of animals or understand them. They are also someone who will talk to the plants and actually feels that the plants have something to say. They love the planet. The animal whisperer is whispering for number 1 and 2 and 3 and these numbers may not know what number 4 is doing but it’s happening and it needs to be because human consciousness is connected in quantum ways, not isolated. Number 3 may not understand number 4 but it’s okay because when you are part of a circle, everyone is helping each other, you are entangled. It is the confluence of consciousness that moves things, it’s not 1 or 2 or 3, it’s the combination of all that creates things, and the whole is stronger than the parts because of it. It’s a beautiful system!

5. Number 5 is change. Number 5 has more old souls in it than in any other type. These are the anchorers because they anchor number 1, 2, 3 and 4. Number 5 is the old soul who goes about their life, not writing a book, or standing on a stage, or doing anything “important” as we perceive importance, not understanding that they are walking the planet as the masters did spreading compassionate action. Compassion on this planet is the thing that most needs to change and by your actions and those who see you, this planet moves.

When you are at home, or with friends, or at work, or on the freeway, are your actions compassionate, do you see God in others? That is an anchorer. The anchorer is the compassion that this planet needs more than anything else, more than the other numbers combined. The anchorer is needed so that the others can do what they do. Without the anchorer, numbers 1 through 4 won’t accomplish anything. This doesn’t mean that number 5 is the most important, it is just important. Every compassionate action changes those around you, you are noticed. You are noticed because that’s not the norm.

There are other numbers, this is just the beginning. Not all the numbers know each other, or believe the same things, or wear the same uniform, or speak the same language, but they all fit together in this confluence of energy that works this puzzle in a beautiful golden ring, and this is what is going to change the planet. Everyone has their niche depending upon who they are, how long they have lived, and what their feeling is that about that which they are supposed to do. It’s why we are called to do the things we do, but we beat ourselves up because we don’t think we measure up to someone else who looks like they are doing something more important than we are. This needs to change because God sees all of us as working the puzzle the same, we are all equally important in our own way. We are not all meant to be doing the same thing. So we need to stop judging ourselves or envying others because what they are doing looks more important than what we are doing. We are all equally important in the grand scheme of things as we move through this energy now on the planet and the energy to come. We are all a piece of God and so we must never forget that.

Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from The Soul’s Journey Lesson Cards, Envy.

Card For Today

Defend to the End, the Worthwhile

Our card for today, Monday, August 22nd, is taken from the Sacred Rebels Oracle, Defend to the End, the Worthwhile.

This card is asking us to find within ourselves what is worthwhile for us and for the planet. If we are unsure what that is, then we need to ask ourselves what it is we feel the most passionate about. What is it that brings us joy, what is it that makes sad, or what is it that brings out the love of our being? The answers to these questions are what is most worthwhile to us. As we look with the eyes of love at a world that is in sore need of all the love we can muster, are we ready to defend the weak and the downtrodden? Are we ready to stand up for the rights of all living things, not just humans but animals as well? Are we ready to put our own power to work on behalf of a minority that is being attacked? The question is what do we care about and what are we willing to do to defend it from anything that would destroy it? We are after all warriors of the heart, or warriors of love, and so we must be ready to walk our talk and stand up for injustice whenever we see it.

Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from the Sacred Rebels Oracle, Defend to the End, the Worthwhile.

Card For Today

In The World, Not Of The World

Our card for today, Tuesday, August 9th, is taken from the Sacred Rebels Oracle – In The World, Not Of The World

It is so easy to get bogged down by life on this planet. We are bombarded every day by commercials or advertisements that tell us we can’t be happy unless we have this or that thing, or that person, or live in that house, or drive that car. Then when we have it all, we must spend hours and hours a day working to make enough money to pay the bills for the things we have. When we come home from work and want to relax, we turn on the TV and, no matter what we watch, there are more commercials. It’s like there is no let up at all. It’s quite frankly a rat race, or like a hamster running on the wheel in its cage, going nowhere fast. I read somewhere the other day that we are all slaves to debt, and that’s what the powers that be want us to be. If we didn’t have to pay the mortgage, or the light bill, or buy food, or any of the other things we need money to do, would we spend 8 hours a day, or sometimes more, working? And for most people it means working jobs that they don’t even like.

What we have forgotten is that we are not of this world. We are, each and every one of us, part of the One Creator. We have consciousness and free will, but we are in essence God experiencing life on this planet. What we also are as part of the One Creator, is a messenger of God’s love, just as Jesus was. We didn’t come here to be a slave to debt or to anything else. We came here to be free, to be joyful, and to be love. Somewhere along the way we lost sight of that or maybe the powers that be have imposed their will upon us. I have been listening to a talk David Wilcock gave at the Conscious Life Expo in which he has been talking about “The Event”. This event is a wave of energy coming through that will cause our sun to send a flash of rainbow colored light that will elevate the consciousness of all humanity. However this light is being held back because humanity isn’t ready. Yes some of us are but the vast majority are still asleep. Those who are not ready will become violent and scream and lash out.

This is why things seem to be taking so long to happen, the things we have all be preparing for and waiting for, like coming into union with our Twins, or world peace, and so on. Even though we are tired of waiting for all the things we have been promised, we are still waiting for the rest of humanity to wake up. So this wave of energy is being held back to give the rest of the population time to get with the program. In the meantime, we are supposed to be living our mastery, sharing the things we know with others, and being love and compassion in all our relationships and dealings with others. Now this does not mean that we go out and start talking non-stop about the things we have learned. It means that we start by sharing a little and then wait to see how the person responds. If they are interested and want to know more, give them a little more and wait to see how they respond. But our main mission here is to be like the masters who have walked this earth before us and be the messengers of love we were meant to be. More people will be brought to the light by our example than by any words we can say.

So let’s not get so caught up in the things of this world that we forget who we are and why we are here. Remember we are in the world and not of the world.

Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from the Sacred Rebels Oracle, In The World, Not Of The World.

Card For Today

Blossoming Abundance

Our card for today, Wednesday, August 3rd, is taken from the Energy Oracle Cards – Blossoming Abundance – “Increasing wealth and value.”

As the energy shifts on this planet, we will find that things in our everyday lives will also shift. Attracting to us the things we need will be easier and, according to Kryon, at some point we will be able to physically manifest something out of nothing, just as the masters could do. This may take some time as our DNA is operating at a much lower level than the masters, but will begin increasing as time passes now. In the meantime if we can have faith and put our trust in Spirit, we will always be taken care of. Abundance does not mean being rich, it means having what we need when we need it and some extra to share. Abundance is not just about material wealth either, it’s abundance in family, friends, love, joy and all the other good things life has to offer. So remember that even though we may not always have the material things we would like to have, there is always something to be grateful for, and the more gratitude we can show, the more we will have to be grateful for!

Affirmation: “Abundant wealth blossoms all around me. I see the value in my everyday life.” (Energy Oracle Cards Guidebook)

Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from the Energy Oracle Cards, Blossoming Abundance.

Card For Today

Honesty

Our card for today, Monday, August 1st, is taken from the Wisdom of the House of Night Oracle Cards – Honesty – “My darling, you have chosen the symbol of clarity and true communication.”

During this time of great change, it is more important than ever to be completely honest in our dealings with others. There is already enough confusion abounding in the world around us without adding to it in any way. If we want to be certain of receiving what it is we want from anyone in our lives, then we have to be honest and up front about what we expect from them. Miscommunication has always been an issue in relationships, but that is becoming more obvious during these times of the great shift. Remember everyone is feeling a little, or a lot, out of sorts right now, not just those of us who know and understand what is happening on the planet right now, but all of humanity. We are ALL going through this shift.

With the light increasing exponentially on this planet, we are reminded to live from our truth, and to stand in our own light and our own true self as much as possible, without being self-righteous or pushy. There are many paths that lead home and each path is as individual as the person walking it. We must not judge what we don’t understand, for we cannot know what any person’s agreement with God may be. All we can do is shine our own light so that anyone who feels lost and alone, in whatever darkness remains upon this earth, can find their way out. Remember we are now asked to stand in our mastery, to be the love we were created to be and to show that love unconditionally to all who cross our path, and above all, to be true to ourselves.

Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from the Wisdom of the House of Night Oracle Cards, Honesty.

Card For Today

Community

Our card for today, Friday, July 29th, is taken from the Energy Oracle Cards – Community – “Connection with Kindred Spirits”

Now isn’t this interesting, yesterday’s card and today’s card refer to the same thing! So that would be confirmation that we are about to connect with people of like mind, those who will understand us and with whom we will share a soul connection. This is such good news! Like many of you, I have very few people in my life who “get” me, who don’t think I’m crazy for the things I believe in and the things I do. It will be a wonderful day to have people come into my life who believe the same things I do and who want to talk about spiritual or esoteric things.

Perhaps this will come about as the energies continue to shift on this planet and more people wake up to who they really are, instead of living the rat race that so many on this planet are still caught up in. And for those still waiting for their soul mate or Twin Flame, that is coming too, so don’t give up hope just yet. The energies are shifting rapidly now and so we can expect new things to happen on an almost daily basis. Remember too that change is the new normal, there is no going back to the way things used to be, not in our own lives or in the world at large. And this is a good thing even if it causes some confusion as we go through it. What is happening is what we have all longed and prayed for. It’s going to be beautiful!

Have a great weekend everyone! ~Namaste~

Love✲ ¸¸.•*¨¸.☆.¸*°˚ ˚
& Light ♫☯♪ ☼ Aurora & Star Twin

Artwork taken from the Energy Oracle Cards, Community.