Our card for the day, Sunday, April 14th, is taken from the Angel Tarot Cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine, Four of Water – “Missing an opportunity. Discontentment or boredom. Open your eyes to the possibilities.”
The suit of water represents the depth of our emotions. It represents falling in love, nurturing our children and opening our hearts to deep feelings. It represents love, romance, relationships, family, dreams and desires. It also encompasses the depths of our intuitive and psychic gifts.
The number 4 represents – “The angels are with you. They send you the number 4 to reassure you that they’ve heard your prayers and are helping you.” Taken from Angel Numbers 101 by Doreen Virtue.
I could have drawn this card just for me today. I don’t usually talk about my own experiences in my readings but I have been going through something the past couple of days, especially today. Most of you don’t know me but something I have been struggling with the past few days and off and on for the past 2 years is trying to find the reason why I’m here on this planet at this time. I worked in health care most of my working life. In March of 2011 I had to give up work because of the constant pain of Fibromyalgia and Osteo-arthritis. Now I find myself at loose ends, no job to go to, I’m unable to do most of the housework, I rarely go out anymore. My days are filled with the same routine of waking up, getting breakfast, having a shower and then the rest of my day is spent on my computer except to prepare a meal or maybe wash some dishes. I look at my future and see endless days of the same routine and honestly I don’t know how to go on like this. I know I’m not the only one who faces similar or even worse in their own lives. So what do we do? What is the purpose of all of this?
I know from all the spiritual articles I read and programs I watch that everything happens to us for a reason. There is nothing that happens that is by accident or is meaningless. There is a blessing or a lesson in all of this but the problem is seeing it. Like this card says, missing an opportunity. Sometimes we become so focused on our problems that we can’t see the blessings, or the silver lining in this dark cloud. Sometimes we get so caught up in feeling sorry for ourselves that we miss an opportunity to help someone else. We become so involved in our own misery that we can’t see beyond it. We don’t want someone to tell us that we should be grateful for what we have when so many are without, we don’t want someone to help us, we want to be left alone in our misery. I know it because I also live it. When we are in the grips of our misery, just like the mermaid on this card, we keep those who love us and would like to help us at bay. We are so focused on what is wrong in our lives or what we don’t have, that we fail to see what we do have and how we can help. Yes even when it seems that we have nothing left to offer, we do indeed have something only we can contribute. I read a quote yesterday that said if you can’t help yourself, help someone else. We need to open our eyes to the ways we can be of service, how we can help someone who is even less fortunate than we are ourselves. We do indeed need to open our eyes to the possibilities.
I’m not saying that we should feel badly for the way we feel. Far from it. Every feeling we have is neither good or bad, it just is. God and the Angels love us no matter what we feel or what we say or what we do. Sometimes we just need to know that it is okay to feel sad or lonely or even miserable. Denying our feelings only makes it worse. It’s kind of a catch 22 in a way. We know that what we focus on we get more of and so we try to pretend that we don’t feel those negative feelings. But what about being authentic? Do we hide what we feel in the hopes it will go away? I’m the expert at putting on a smile even when my world feels like it’s falling apart. If someone asks me how I am I will say I’m fine and smile, even though my heart is breaking or my body feels like I’ve been run over by a truck.
I watched a show today on Gaiam TV. It was a video of one of Panache Desai’s workshops in Florida titled Separation Ends, Mastery Begins. He is such a beautiful spirit! He said we suffer needlessly because we have bought into the illusion of separation when someone told us we weren’t good enough, we weren’t smart enough or pretty enough or whatever other reason we were just not enough. He said we are not broken, we are not damaged, we are nothing short of beautiful and amazing. We don’t need someone to fix us, or save us because we are Divine. The Divine lives in us and through us, we are the embodiment of the Divine, just as all life everywhere is. It’s okay to have bad days because God still loves us. However once we take what that means, that we are Divine, beautiful, powerful beings in our own right, and that there is nothing that will ever separate us from God or His love, once we integrate that within us, then we begin to see that we are okay just as we are. We are more than enough, we are worthy of love and of abundance and of vibrant health. We are loved always, even when we feel miserable and alone. Most of all we are worthy of our own love.
So it’s okay to have a bad day or two. It’s okay to feel what we feel, to own it. Having days when we feel less than the beautiful, powerful beings of Light that we are doesn’t make us any less Lightworkers. Possibly the solar activity that is bombarding our planet over the past day or so is contributing to these feelings too. The main thing is not to let it defeat us. To not let anything or anyone make us feel unworthy or less than who we truly are. To not let opportunities to be of assistance to others pass us by, to keep our eyes open to any possibilities that present themselves to us. Remember you are loved and you are love, you are Divine! Have a beautiful and blessed Sunday everyone! ~Namaste~
Artwork taken from the Angel Tarot Cards, Four of Water, Artist: Steve A. Roberts