Our card for the day, Sunday, July 14th, is taken from the Magical Messages From The Fairies Oracle Cards – Love Life – “The basis of your question involves your romantic life, which is now changing for the better.”
The majority of you know very little about me and so drawing this card today would be appropriate for me and I would think that would include some of you. I’m going to give you a little background so you will understand.
In 2008 I met a man online who, after some strange coincidences, a telepathic connection, and a special bond we shared, even though we are miles and miles apart, I came to believe was my Soul Mate. We spent an amazing 5 months of love and euphoria. Then things began to fall apart. Over the last 5 years I have had only sporadic communication with him and we have both had other relationships. Yet we keep being drawn back to each other.
Then 3 years ago I became aware of another man the day he died. I never knew him in life but was Facebook friends with his sister. He has been with me in spirit since his passing. I have had several readings done that confirm this man is my Soul Mate. However for some reason the first man seems to be front and center in my thoughts every day that passes over my head. I have tried to forget him but to no avail. We have never met physically, this was a long distance relationship with communication taking place online or on the phone. That doesn’t mean the love isn’t real because I can assure you it is.
Last night I had a dream that I went to the place where he lives for one day, my goal being to see him, to look into his eyes and be in his arms. However I couldn’t find him. I was in deep despair when I woke up. It’s been on my mind all day. I don’t know what the dream meant for me, maybe nothing but a dream, and now I draw this card.
From the time I was a young girl I have wished and prayed and hoped to find my one and only love. That’s been my goal all of my life. I didn’t care about having a career or lots of money. I only wanted this one thing that has eluded me all of my life. The presence of the man in spirit should be more than enough but for some reason my heart still longs for the other man.
So based on all of that, this card could mean that my love life is about to change, perhaps the other man will stop being such a big part of my thoughts or perhaps something is changing with him and he will be back. I don’t know, only time will tell on that.
For many of us, we are still waiting for that ONE to show up, to appear in our lives and make us happy. However that won’t happen until we first find that love inside ourselves or that’s what I keep hearing. Now I’m going to stop there for a minute because part of me always goes back to this. What of the people who know nothing of this spiritual journey, who for all intents and purposes are not going through this deep cleansing of everything in us that isn’t love? Why are they finding someone who makes them completely happy and fulfills all their desires in a mate? It’s not that I begrudge them their happiness but it just seems to me to be kind of unfair.
For the past several years I have struggled with what I call “wanting to go home”. I’m tired, I’m beyond caring if I live or die, right now death would be preferable to this existing in limbo. Having found that man who made me feel things I didn’t know anyone could feel, and then having that fall apart hasn’t helped my wanting to be here. I watch as others lose their loved ones to illness or accidents and I ask why is that happening to them when all I want is to go home? This is not depression although it does sound like it I know. I have had help and seems I am “normal” whatever that means. This is just a loss of love for life. And this would be what I originally thought this card actually meant until I read the meaning on it. I thought it was about loving life.
So how do I do that? How do I get back my love for life? I don’t have any answers to that question and so I’m putting this out there for all of you to give me some answers this time. I want to hear your thoughts on all of this today. This is why I haven’t been doing the daily reading much of late, my own heart is heavy and I find it difficult to drum up the will to do even this. So now I turn it over to all of you to give me some advice or just your thoughts. Whatever you feel like sharing with me.
I have tried to do readings for myself regarding this issue but I guess it’s true what they say, readers most often can’t read for themselves. Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments or if you prefer to do so privately then you can private message me. Have a great day everyone! ~Namaste~
Artwork taken from the Magical Messages From The Fairies, Love Life, artist: Judy Mastrangelo