Okay so I’m not posting a reading tonight because honestly I’m having a hard time right now dealing with my emotions, specifically the negative ones. Everything right now seems to be pushing my buttons and I’m ready to scream but can’t as I don’t live alone. I feel like I’m always swallowing my anger and frustration and this is also negatively affecting my own health. Along with that I also feel like I’m questioning everything about my spiritual life.
In this moment I find myself moving away from some “spiritual” things like Twin Flames. God knows I have done so much research on the subject, I have subscribed to sites that talk about Twin Flames, I have had readings done myself, I have been told this one is my Twin Flame and then that changed and someone else was now my Twin Flame, but who the heck knows??? I was thinking to myself that I have had a few Tarot readings done for me, even before I knew about Twin Flames, and when I look back, not one of them has come true, not even one thing I was told! Now I do understand that what readers see is a potential for the future, but out of the dozen or so I have had done, don’t you think someone would have gotten it right?
When it comes to the Twin Flame phenomena, I have decided that most of it is hype. I know too many people who have put their lives on hold waiting for their Twin Flame to wake up and smell the coffee and come to them. Some have been waiting a years for this. Every post says it’s about to happen, any day now, be ready. Well it’s almost 9 years for me and I know others who have been at this a lot longer. So my question is, have we all given away our power?? Here is where all this stuff on Twin Flames originated from:
Greek philosopher Aristotle said: “Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.” According to Greek legend, by the story based on mythology written by Aristotle’s mentor, Plato in his work, Symposium, humans originally were half male and half female. After conspiring to climb Mount Olympus, Zeus ordered them cut in half. Since that day, every human spends their life searching for their other half.
Based on this, a few sentences, this whole phenomenon of Twin Flames was created. From most of what I have read, not all Twins have incarnated on this planet. It was originally thought that one Twin would have a physical life and the other would remain in spirit to act as a guide and now here we all are searching for our Twin Flames. I remember reading in one of Steve Rother’s channelings of The Group that Twin Flames were never meant to meet on this planet even if they were both here. So again who is right? There is so much hype based around the idea of our “other half” and so many of us are missing the opportunity of having a very loving and satisfying relationship with an ideal partner because we are waiting on our elusive Twin Flame.
Are we deluding ourselves into thinking that someone we believe we love and who we believe is our Twin Flame is going to come running to us one of these days and tell us how sorry they are for the misery they have put us through? And people are profiting from our pain! Now there are so many Twin Flame coaches and readers out there who all promise that if you follow their advice, you and your Twin will magically come into union. In my mind, because I have experienced this first hand, it’s mostly BS.
I have made a decision for myself and I am choosing not to be part of this anymore. Sometimes it feels like I have sold my soul in the name of Twin Flames. I’m done waiting for some magical time to arrive when all Twins are going to wake up and go running to their partner. Chances are it’s not going to happen. If this hurts some of you, then I’m sorry but perhaps it’s time to look at the bitter truth, we are fooling ourselves by jumping on this band wagon while life passes us by.
Also over the past couple of years I have been relying on pendulums to get answers to some questions regarding my Twin and other things, and I have tried to follow what I get, but then after a week or so I will ask the same questions and get different answers! So what is right and what is wrong? How do we know? I hear people say “my guides said this or that” and I think to myself “why the heck can’t I hear my guides?” I mean yes now and then something will come through that has to be from Spirit because there is no other way to explain it, but for the most part I always feel like I’m fumbling around in the dark and not sure what is truth and what is fiction. Some will say that their Higher Self told them this person was their Twin Flame. Great but I can’t seem to hear my Higher Self either. I must be a bit slow I figure, not as in tune with Spirit as I would like to be, and I can’t seem to make that connection as hard as I have tried.
So I guess I’m just questioning everything right now. I’m beginning to think those who say I’m living in a fantasy world may be right. Perhaps it’s time to take my head out of the clouds and live in this reality. A scary thought really because I’m not sure I have lived in this reality till now. I’m just tired of waiting for things that may never happen. As Kryon says, change happens slowly and this “flash” of energy that some are expecting that will change everyone in an instant, is not going to happen. And so I’m beginning to think that at 59 years of age, it might be time to come down to earth and live before I die.
Take care everyone and I will be back with the readings when I get my own life figured out.